Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Gd, I don't want to talk to You today

By David Karpel

 Gd, I don’t want to talk to You today.

 Today I was late for work.
 I couldn’t tear myself away from the news.
 Pesha and Eldad and their four boys.
 Hadassah and Levi and their white page future.
Friends, family, brothers and sisters.
All of them in imminent danger from missiles,
from weaponized cars, from bullets, from blades.
No place is safe. And I am at a desk.
There are books, papers needing grading,
cold water, hot coffee, an apple. I am enraged.
Not a good place to be when high school girls
are depending on you to teach them,
to learn from ‘To Kill a Mockingbird’
or “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night.”
 I am enraged. I blasted Metallica on the way in.
Wasn’t enough. I screamed my throat raw at a red light.
Wasn’t enough. Helpless, paralyzed,
with a heart pounding rage against my rib cage.
My sternum hurts. And all I can do is pray?

Gd, I don’t want to talk to You today.

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